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Dedicated to Matthew Edward Bosworth

Cold Turkey

I’ll write more about this when my head is clearer. For now I’ll just say that I’m trying to quit smoking cigarettes. I’m sure John was talking about something else in this song, but this is how I’m feeling today. It’s day two for me if you’re interested.

Please listen through to the end. If you’ve never experienced withdrawal, John makes you feel it with or without words:

Oh I’ll be a good boy
Please make me well
I promise you anything
Get me out of this hell

The Crack of Stupid

It is exactly 5:00 a.m. as I begin typing this. I went to bed at 8:30 last night, woke up at 2:00 a.m. and have been up ever since. I caved and put the coffee on at around 3:00 a.m. By that I mean I had Mike do it because his is so much better than mine.

Mike enjoys staying up to all hours on the weekends.  It was comforting to find him (snoring) in his chair. I woke him so he wouldn’t drop his laptop. No, really! I didn’t even know I wanted I coffee at that particular moment.

So, here I am at the crack of stupid, drinking coffee, watching old reruns of the original Law & Order and blogging about it.

It is now 5:10 a.m.

I don’t suppose it matters if anyone reads here. In fact, I see some password-protected posts in my near future. I’ll send passwords to a select few to start with and see how it goes. Maybe at some point, I’ll be able to get this blog rolling again and resharpen my debating skills. (I wish you could see me waggling my eyebrows deviously.)

It is now 5:15 a.m. This is ridiculous.

Peace of Mind

I’ve probably posted this somewhere else around here, but I can’t be arsed to look. On an old discussion forum Mike and I used to own and operate, members were asked to post the lyrics to something they might consider a personal theme song. This is the one I chose and I supposed it’s still quite fitting. (Except scratch the last verse because I do value the advice of certain other people which is why I have returned to this forum! )

Peace of Mind

Now you’re feelin’ kinda low ’bout the dues you’ve been payin’
Future’s coming much too slow
And you wanna run but somehow you just keep on stayin’
Can’t decide on which way to go
Yeah, yeah, yeah

I understand about indecision
But I don’t care if I get behind people livin in competition
All I want is to have my peace of mind.

Now you’re climbin’ to the top of the company ladder
Hope it doesn’t take too long
Can’t ya see there’ll come a day when it won’t matter
Come a day when you’ll be gone

I understand about indecision
But I don’t care if I get behind people livin’ in competition
All I want is to have my peace of mind

A Heavy Heart

I can’t believe how long it’s been! I don’t know if I like this new set up, but I’ll give it a chance.

I don’t know if anyone still reads this thing, but I’ll take a chance on that too.

I have a heavy heart today and felt drawn to this once warm and familiar venue. I’m not exactly sure how or where to start. There have been a lot of changes and a lot going on in my life and I need a place to share and process it all.

Is anyone still out there?

Any Way You Want Me

For my beloved husband:

I’ll be as strong as a mountain,
Or weak as a willow tree,
Anyway you want me,
Well that’s how I will be.

I’ll be as tame as a baby,
Or wild as the raging sea,
Anyway you want me,
Well that’s how I will be.

In your hands my heart is clay,
To take and hold as you may.
I’m what you make me, you’ve only to take me,
And in your arms I will stay.

I’ll be a fool or a wise man,
My darling you hold the key,
Yes, anyway you want me,
Well that’s how I will be,
I will be.